Sometimes Moving is Standing Still

Just because God is silent doesn't mean He has abandoned you. I heard that on a podcast recently. I honestly really needed to hear that. I have the type of personality that loves to know the 5ws and the h. I want to know the answers and I want to know them now. However, life works the exact opposite. I don't know the answers to the "where do you wan to be in 5 years," "why are you not married," "well, where do you want to live." I just look at people and smile and then say something witty or try to be funny. When I'm asking those questions to myself it's usually while scrolling online and comparing myself to others. You start to feel like your falling behind on some sort of "suppose to be this way" time table.  

Also, because we're comparative creatures always wanting to keep up with whoever the Jones' are at that time, we constantly feel behind. People who don't know their career paths feel behind those who know their 5 year plan. Those who know their 5 year plan feel behind those who are married or are working, and look like they have the perfect "work/life balance." Those who really do have a good work/life balance feel behind those who are already having kids. When you think about it, those who are the happiest are those who don't even have that comparison mindset. They realize that its so self defeating to compare. They seek out their calling and realize that it's going to be hard. You have to be content where you are but not complacent. Uhh that's so much easier to write than it is to put into practice. 

I want to say so badly that I'm one of those people who is content but not complacent. Right now, that would be a lie to say that. I have been, I remember feeling that it's ok because Jesus knew what he was doing even if I didn't. I want to get back to that. That is still true today, even if I don't remember that it is. He knows where I'm going and He does't make mistakes. I do, when I try to answer questions for myself. "For I know the plans I have for you." That should be enough; that is enough to make me feel more calm. I don't know, but he does, and I trust Him.